sweetx... miss ya. so glad u called... aint feelin as bad now.like when u cum baq I wun b arnd... sighs.
i.luf.you
bitinn` awayy at 8:25 AM
okays. camp tomms. sighs.
sick. physically. mentally. emotionally.
refuse ter go ter de docs.
refuse ter take pills.
dat's de usual me. anihows... jez feeling bad.
sighs. I'm jez a goner.
everithin is jez goin so wrong when u're nort around.
i jez so dun enjoy life now.
hope things'll get better tomms at camp
goin dere wif enthusiasm and spirit.
i'm so nort gonna let myself be pulled down by all dese sickness
guess must be the walk in de rain yesterdae.
brought dis lil kid out todae
he's so kewt
and I mean 101% kewt.
like yea. spent like thirtee bucks at de arcade
den I had ter shelter him everiwhere we walked ter from de rain
like I'm sick and can't take care of myself
yet out dere I was tryin so hard ter take care of a lil boi
hmns. sorrie guys din join u all fer swimmin
I'll neva join u all fer ani swimmin sessions
sorrie.
joe:: sorrie lars. it wasn't dat I had de intention of nort tellin u. I was jez so blardie sianed.
nette:: I miss u so blardie hell muchie much. guess I've no time ter go out wif u guys alreadies. i'm packed til sch reopens. -sobs-
kenn:: wort's done's alreadie done. hahs. nort gonna remove it or wortsoeva... -blehs- and its nort dat I din wan ter replie yer sms earlie in de morn 6am... YOU were de one who din reply me at 2or3am? fell aslp when ya told me u cudnt get ter slp. wudder lars. hahas. aniwaes hope ya din suffer frm anithin after eatin yer RAW campbell. -yikes!-
bitinn` awayy at 8:21 AM
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
last night. someone told me of a kind of cold one can get.
perhaps Ive felt it before
perhaps this feeling i once had is what he's feeling now
found dis stupid thing I wrote a long time ago.
this might be all i ever wanted to tell him long ago...
I drift slowly into the shadows
Everything around me goes...
I hide this hideous being in a room with no light
Im on the brink of going crazy, i swear, i might
The love i once had is gone
this is not my life, i dont belong
All the songs i hear
remind me of the person i see in my picture
The depths of my eyes are so deep, i can see my own soul
without him, my heart is just an empty hole
I take a deep breathe in and then sigh
close my eyes and think back then cry
The happiness i once had has shatter
and all is now left tattered
Im no longer the person i used to be
My heart is locked, no longer free
A heart of glass is hard to keep
Its hard to hold the tears and not weep
Im afraid it might soon break
And leave my heart with an awful ache
I want to say i still love you
and i dont wanna feel the blues
I want you to know my arms are open for only you
In all the hard times, through and through
when u're cold... clutch yer covers close to you... hug your teddy. breathe. then let it all out... take care my friend
bitinn` awayy at 11:10 PM
Tell Me Inside That You And Me
Will Always Stay Together Free
Never To Leave Each Others Side
Walking The Path In Heavens Light
Tell Me Inside That Everythings Okay
Nothing Will Change The Love We Share
Make Me Believe That Our Souls Are Lost
Caught In This Web Of Everlasting Life
Tell Me Inside That You Love Me Still
You'll Always Be Here When I Get The Chill
Cover Me Up In Your Arms To Sleep
Feel The Warmth Of My Love In Your Dreams
Tell Me Inside That Time Will Stop For Us
Freezing All Life And Letting Us Be Together
Silence Will Settle And Show Us The Way
Into Two Hearts Now Beating As One... .. .
bitinn` awayy at 10:49 AM
had helluva fun with joe and jo today. love u guys. like we were all laughing our hearts out. was fun. don't feel like typing much.
joe:: thank you for today and everyday. -beams- you light up my life. "-rolls eyes-"??? hahas. you stupid girl. i love you:: -muacx-
jo:: thank you for the so cute so cute cookie monster thing and sorry for freaking out about the "open space karaoke" thing yep? -huggs-
am tired.
ain't feeling too good
just missing him
helluva lot
am tired. ain't feeling too good. just missing him helluva lot
bitinn` awayy at 10:23 AM
Monday, June 10, 2002
gosh char!!! dis is so blardie important! hahas. great news fer ya. i found photoshop 7.0!!! !! ! and i got it downloaded[[the word's installed... thanx ter melv. hahs]] on my laptop like I am SO happie?! and I din hafta pay a single cent fer dis thousand buck thing. hahas! u wanna share? -beeg beeg grins- dunch u jez so luf me?! hahas!
bitinn` awayy at 11:09 AM
well... wort can I sae kenn... it's jez luvin de wrong person
bitinn` awayy at 10:56 AM
hees. todae was so fun and enjoyable. i'm trulie happie. haven't felt lyke dis fer a real long time. went ter school in de mornin ter paint sume guidey banner and gort kinda pist off so joined ed joe peis char. we went window shoppin at citie link and suntec. and four of dem were so busie tryin on clothes dey liked. hahas. all except fer me. was in a sian mood. shan;t mention why. hahas. den we had lunch at kennie rogers which was fab. but i had trouble finishin de food and our dear char was complainin how much I waste food and how much de ppl in africa are so short of food and yet dere I was wastin my food. hahas. it was so fillin. So fillin it can even last till now. onli had a cup of green tea in between. den I went ter meet sweetie. -grins- watched panic room. -blehs- suckie show. supposed ter be horror rites? made me worrie fer nuthin. bah. aniwaes I had a great nite. neva been out til so late.
.char. :: heys sorrie fer nort finishin my food and nort sparin a thought fer de peeps and africa all rights? i promise u next time I'll order less. -sompa- hahas. will try TRY v hard ter cum up wif a cool poem fer ya. hahas. aniwaes thanx fer crackin me up a hell lot todae! -huggies- i luf de wae u hug. so farnie. hahas.
.ed. :: hey u sumo champ monkie! hahas. i'm glad u din bring me home. hahas. i'll tell yer future boifren worta get fer u kies? hahas... I'm still so amused by de powerpuff gals water tubler. u sure u'll carrie it around? thanx fer de dae out cutie! -huggies- luf ya.
.joe. :: thanx alot kies... fer listenin me out. but yea. u can continue ter live wif my lies. haha. sorrie fer bein over sensitive. hahas. newaes ya take good care of yerself yars? -smiles- i.luf.u
.peix. :: u like look good in almost everithin u try? i rillie so enjoyed my dae wif u. we'll go out again sum time or another kies? -smiles-
.barney. :: thanx fer last nite's chat yars? hahas. yep. maebe I was oversensitive. okaes. i admit I was. hahas. yer janjan arhs!!! aiyos. omg. soOoOo spendthrift and materialistic. sighs. de power of luf. hahas. hug her like cushion? hahas. worteva lors.
.sweetie. :: i've neva felt so much before. i'm most thankful ter God fer givin me u. u're lyin when u saed dat bite din hurt. i bit myself and it wasn't dat hard but alreadie quite painful. i'll make up fer it. hahas. but after it all. i still mean it when I saed we gotta cherish worteva now kies. if i cud ever sit beside u...breathe de same air and see how stars sparkle in de blue nite again... i'd wish fer
eternitie
bitinn` awayy at 10:23 AM
Sunday, June 09, 2002
i knew all dese wud cum.
but i neva knew it'd be so soon.
perhaps when u saed foreva...
it meant neva
please dun make promises
when wort's left at de end of de dae is emptiness
dun sae de "i luf u"s
if it's nort gonna be true
bitinn` awayy at 9:17 AM
x fer dearez yangs x
You are so beautiful, to me
You are so beautiful, to me
Can't you see?
You're everything I hope for
You're everything I need, baby
You are so beautiful, to me
You are so wonderful, to me yeah
You are so wonderful, to me
Can't you see?
You're everything I hope for
You're everything I need, baby
You are so wonderful baby, baby, to me
If only you could see
What your love really does to me
You'll open up your heart's desires
And we'll make love to the midnight hour
'cause you are
Eres tan bella si, para mi
Eres tan bella, para mi
Can't you see
You're everything I hope for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful, to me
yangs.
cum baq soon?
i miss ya tons.
and i can't wait fer u ter sing dat song ter me again
found dis and dere's dis latin or spanish[ain't rillie sure.hahas] verse in it.
so romantic rites? -grins-
i'll master it and sing it ter u
and u'll pick bougainvilleas fer me again yeps?
i'm so glad u're walkin a hell lot over in london.
so when u cum baq and hang out wif us,
u wun complain walkin even though it's frm suntec ter bras basah
yangs.
cum baq soon
i miss ya tons.
bitinn` awayy at 8:07 AM
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