wish and continue wishing upon that moon,
that shines so brightly and beautifully.
hope and continue to hope upon the star,
that sparkles and shimmers in the night.
thats what the girl did for many many nights.
she hoped and wished and hoped again.
but none of her wishes came true.
she was still having the same old miserable life.
people told her not to give up,
is there such a thing as perseverance?
people told her to try harder,
is there something called desperation?
finally one day her wishes came true,
her heart has finally broken free.
it was then that you could see,
her beautiful brown eyes dancing.
someone managed to get her smiling,
just by meaning that much to her.
those beautiful times that friend shared with her,
meant more that the others to her.
then one day she lost her friend
and couldnt catch her back again,
she had went to a place that was unreachable.
the girl didnt shed a single tear,
nor did she hate what was going on.
even though her friend had turned her back on her,
those memories they shared continue to live inside her,
they will become musical notes,
that continue to sings within her heart.
bitinn` awayy at 9:01 AM
hahas! ive been prayin and prayin for so long for things to turn out right, for Him to show me the side I should take and thanks for telling me what to do. im here now without joette. and thank God i don't have to have those "neutrality talks" with ser and pings anymore and just say whatever i want to say. for now, i know joette thinks i suck. so when she said she really really treasured me as friend like a long long way back, she might not even mean it. so that's the past. and now joette doesnt have the simplest trust in me. so yea. to think i wanted to be joette's friend even after all these had happened. i was just waitin at her door to let me in. was i stupid? or stupid? hahas! wells if she doesnt need me, why would I need a friend who doesnt even trust me and has zilch faith in me? so now joette and edna wants to form their own new clique and then they'll call themselves [[the forced]] and less than a month they are going to split. and oh. how sad. joette and edna will end up by themselves AGAIN. and oh. what's the saddest part of it all? joette does NOT like edna. and... edna does NOT like joette. like ha! ha! ha! i've finally seen your true colors joette. I was stunned and scared for that moment I held on to the notes. those were actually your thoughts? you made me think twice bout staying neutral. and now this friendship has totally gone down the gutters. im so disappointed. then perhaps when you cried, you were thinkin if later on you change your opinions about us and still wants us as your friends, there's completely no way things will be like the way things were before.
bitinn` awayy at 8:40 AM
Thursday, June 27, 2002
Oh the sentimental side of life! You are the fourth finger, the ring finger as it is sometimes known as. You value emotions and the small sentimentalities of life. Especially dreams of that you-know-who...
Which finger are you? Take the quiz to find out.
bitinn` awayy at 7:34 AM
am still standin on neutrality. but why does it seem as though im not given a chance to? -shrugs- im losin her is her pride more important? or am i just not a friend in her eyes?
bitinn` awayy at 7:28 AM
Wednesday, June 26, 2002
[[joe]] i dont know why you were so hostile towards me today alrights? you might say that you have nothing to talk to me about. but why is it only today you have nothing to talk about with me? -shrugs- or do you have nothing to talk to me about everyday and you force yourself to talk to me or something? i suddenly find this really big gap between us. i mean siping and i wanted to group with you and edna today for the english thing but when we asked you guys edna just oh veron we dont need you two. we formed our own group alreadies. like... huh? i just want you to know that im not taking sides alrights? and that I still love you alot as a buddy. a buddy alrights. not just a friend. and when you and edna just left the class today without saying goodbye i was really hurt. not that im putting a point across that saying bye bye to me is a must or something. but you barely spoke to me today. -shrugs- sighs. i don't know what else to say.
bitinn` awayy at 7:56 AM
Her hair was up in a ponytail Her favourite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, And she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, That she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, If she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; She knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates Of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, For her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, She tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school, Eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees A dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, For everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, Anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, A student from the class. To introduce their daddy, As seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, Every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, For a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?" She heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," Another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard a daddy say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, Too busy to waste his day." The words did not offend her, As she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, Who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, Came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, Because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, Since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, And how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories He taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, And taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, And ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing here alone. "Cause my daddy's always with me, Even though we are apart I know because he told me, He'll forever be in my heart"
bitinn` awayy at 5:17 AM
With that, her little hand reached up, And lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, Beneath her favourite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, Her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, Who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love Of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, Doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, Staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, But its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, He's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, But heaven's just too far. You see he was a fireman And died just this past year When airplanes hit the towers And taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, It's like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, And saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, She witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, All starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, They saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," To the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, Of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, For each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose. And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, By the love of her shining bright star. And given the gift of believing, That heaven is never too far
bitinn` awayy at 5:16 AM
Monday, June 24, 2002
things that jez made my first day of term three topsy-turvy::.
:: char [[-shrugs-she jez didnt seem keen on talkin to me]]
:: results [[failed.besides chem]]
:: guides [[no one told me the goddamn test is dis wed when im so not prepared]]
:: cut [[clumsily cut myself with yings knife]]
:: yang's sarcasm [[who ever told u i was buyin promenade tickets from sam may i ask?]]
:: ser's ass [[swing and whamp my head into the wall and jerk all my tears out.still hurts newaes]]
:: piano cher [[im sorry i cried in front of u for the second time in seven years]]
:: sisters [[thanks for spoilin my day by messin up my stuff]]
:: flu [[u come when i least want you to]]
[[pings]]- youre absolutely right. there's more to come. we stick through thick and thin alrights? ilu.
[[yings]]- luf u so much. u make me laugh. im glad ure my new seating partner!
[[sam]]- my angel! huggs// thanks for being there for your sad keeper here. luf ya...
[[kenn]]- sighs. we're goin through hard times together.
[[jzlee]]- take care of your hand and thanks for tryin to brighten me up.
[[sweetx]]- thank God there's still you.
bitinn` awayy at 8:01 AM
-sighs- ((peis)). yar. you said not to make a big thing out of hanging up on people so like what u said, it's no longer such a big deal. i get. and pings was really pist that char hung up on her. i felt that it was a big thing because anyone would be hurt by that? so if it's a small thing then no one would feel hurt when someone hangs up on them rites? oh. and i didn't go offline that night just after leaving you with that right. i got disconnected and when i came back u're gone. yeps. anyways i'm sorry that you got the wrong message. sighs. i never meant to spite u alrites?
bitinn` awayy at 1:37 AM
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