x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
never-never land.
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
lols
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
hahas
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
how's never never land like?
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
where everyone knows each other, no such thing as strangers. no crimes, only blooming love. Everything is free, no such thing as credit or debit.
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
-swoons-
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
that's such a great place
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
will there be wildflowers, daisies or roses?
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
anything u think is good is there.
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
whoah.
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
then there'll be the sun the moon the stars
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
and there'll be passion. forgiveness and beauty
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
and there, u can leave your wallet with a thousand bucks in there on a table in the coffee shop unattended, and still find it intact when u come back hours later.
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
and there u find great ballads and love songs playing on and on all over again
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
and there there're no tears. no sorrows. no pain
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
we'll play in the rain
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
yeah, there wont even be words like 'bad', 'pain', 'hate', 'sorrow', etc in the dictionary
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
there'll be lotsa luf... smiles. and joy.
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
=)
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
then there'll be dragonflies flying above long blades of grasses
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
And then hear the winds whisperin sweet i love yous
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
then there'll be the beach where lovers lay on the sand to count the stars in the sky
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
where everything is beatiful with no such thing as ugly
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
and everyone and everything is pretty. beautiful. splendid
x. my.life's.gone.bonkers.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
yeap yeap. and then lovers walk on water hand in hand.
x. my.life's.topsy-turvy.cuz.i'm.without.u says:
then everything is complete and wonderful
when will we ever get to never-never land?
bitinn` awayy at 10:15 AM
kiss the stars above heavens
wrap your wings around safety
free your soul from everything
hold your lover so damn close
lay upon the ground and sleep
feel the wind whisper in dreams
taste the passion in the soul
never let go of the love you feel
bitinn` awayy at 9:57 AM
Love is nothing more than a mirrored image staring back with lies
bitinn` awayy at 9:51 AM
i so hate your attitude.
bitinn` awayy at 9:26 AM
jo . [>] eeks! u did the witch doctor dance. oh u evil evil gurl.u dont hafta do that to cheer me up... just you leaving a sweet note has made my bad day a good enough one. -smiles- been missin your laughters and hugs... ='<
bitinn` awayy at 8:38 AM
Friday, July 12, 2002
i just miss you so much. so much. so much. im sick without you. and now im down with a fever cough flu and sorethroat. all becuase you're not here
bitinn` awayy at 9:54 AM
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
But it's not so bad
(Not so bad...)
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
(Need me back...)
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever...
bitinn` awayy at 9:28 AM
Thursday, July 11, 2002
God. every minute i go before You. i pray on bended knees that Youll show me Your light. but Lord. where do i stand now? ive lost faith. these pieces of my broken heart are shattered across the mirror wall bleeding out the lies ive held into nothing is where i dwell. these whispers seem to fade away tearing me apart was their job today everything has become so fake. take me far away into another place. leave me alone to dream inside my mind. erase my pain away and drain out my heart. keep this door locked so i can be free. this ticking of the clock is weakened by the source of emtpy breathing. i feel so suffocated in me. I've been praying and hoping and wishing and praying and hoping and wishing yet nothing comes out of it. Lord are You there or are You putting me on trials and temptations?
bitinn` awayy at 7:36 AM
sighs. bad day. was good at first. till the last part. -sighs-. didnt do well for my piano theory. damn. and that bitch cher of mine wants me to re-take. like wudder... i passed alrites. and she still wants me to re-take grade 6 when im not even needed to. i really dont like theory tests. grr... and everyone listen up I CANt STAND SN GUIDES ANYMORE! hrmph. im pist. totally am.
bitinn` awayy at 5:56 AM
jas!!! gee... it's "youre my honey bun suger plum HUMPIE YUMPIE YUM. youre my sweetie pie. youre my cuppy cake gumdrop snookem snookem ure the apple of my eye!" alrites. that's my fave guides song. hahas. always gotta sing it to my cheryl. =>
bitinn` awayy at 5:45 AM
Wednesday, July 10, 2002
alrites. joe stop sighin away. i know the whole thing is really complicated but im sorry. i duno lars. hahas. anyways. thanks so much for being at my house now. cuz I really have lotsa stuff to catch up with you on. you missed so much for the week we didnt talk alrites... hrmph
bitinn` awayy at 4:16 AM
nette... jez read yer whole diary. hmns. u're so sweet.
bitinn` awayy at 3:52 AM
Tuesday, July 09, 2002
Why women cry
Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom?
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said,
"And you never will, but that's O.K."
Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?".
"All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say......
The little boy grew up and became a man,
still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?"
GOD answered......
"When I made woman,
I decided she had to be special.
I made her shoulders
strong enough to carry
the weight of the world, yet,
made her arms gentle enough to give comfort
I gave her the inner strength
to endure childbirth
and the rejection
that many times will come
even from her own children.
I gave her a hardness
that allows her
to keep going and take care
of her family and friends,
even when everyone else gives up,
through sickness and fatigue without complaining
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all
circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly....
She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and
to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears....
I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults
and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but
sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him
unfalteringly
For all of this hard work,
I also gave her a tear to shed.
It is hers to use
whenever needed and
it is her only weakness
When you see her cry,
tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though
she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.
She is special!
bitinn` awayy at 8:32 AM
this is specially for joe. hey gurlie. xie xie ni hen duo hen duo alrites. u've helped me alot through all these dumb patches. alrites. not dumb. confusing turmoil. got rid off that whirlwind in my thoughts. im serious. i like u. hahas. stalk me... cheys. your handwriting... im so familiar with it already. that note is so lame alrites? hahas. stalk me... next time get someone else to write it to frighten me kies? grr//
bitinn` awayy at 7:34 AM
today i found this red nike watch in the library. act sam spotted it. and i fell in love with it. but then, when i told hunnybear lings bout it she asked me to give it to the librarian if not she wont friend me anymore. -sulks- so i gave it to the librarian and asked her to put it at the lost and found corner.sighs. lings i was so guai rites. sighs. i loved that watch so much. grr... but sighs. lings say hao xin you hao bao... im so waiting for my hao bao...
and pings! this ding ding ding thing keeps ringin in my head! sheesh... ding ding ding ding an anteater.... ding ding ding ding an otter. grr... it's just ringing so much... it's really driving me nuts. but i cant wait to do that silly act with you again tomms!!! lalas. ure my friend. and the best one at that! i luf u!
bitinn` awayy at 6:37 AM
pings! alrites. i just am missin u. im sorry u gotta sit and suffer sittin beside borin ser for two weeks. hahas. anyways ser i was so angry with you today for not lookin after my art stuff alrites? the papers were flyin everywhere and people step step step. hrmph!
bitinn` awayy at 4:44 AM
Monday, July 08, 2002
you dont have to be perfect for me to love you dear
all i ask for in return is the love i give to you
you are already special with that smile you have
i cannot breathe when i see you i just stare
i watch your wings wrap around your gentle body
you are so beautiful to me your my angel
i cannot live without you at my side to care
i would die to let you live i give my life
these are the words i put into your heart
i will always love you from deep in my soul
you are everything that i dream to have
inside i close my eyes praying that you were here
each day i wait for you to come into my arms
for the world to turn in silence as we kiss in time
i want to feel your warmth and safety down inside
i am so empty without you here to love
dreams and fantasies always keep my love so strong
nothing can break the lock thats set in our minds
everything i am today is because you cared so much
ever since we began talk i have never felt so loved
these are the words i put into your heart
i will always love you from deep in my soul
you are everything that i dream to have
inside i close my eyes praying that you were here
this is the love i give to you with everything i am
you are now apart of me and i am inside you
time is set as fate slowly brings us together
heres my heart for you to have as i cant be there
let us breathe as one so we wont feel so alone
i was nothing in this world untill you touched my soul
i cannot thank you enough as i watch you smile
i write this song just for you because i love you so
these are the words i put into your heart
i will always love you from deep in my soul
you are everything that i dream to have
inside i close my eyes praying that you were here
bitinn` awayy at 6:50 AM
you try to believe that this is the way
nothing will cross your path with pain
dying inside you wish you were alone
to battle your loss out in the frozen cold
you remember your friends and family
lost in your thoughts somewhere empty
too many times you have come and gone
deep into your soul to find life numb
your heart speaks to god wishing for love
but you receive nothing in return
everything you ever wanted is now so torn
scattered with pain you cry upon the floor
nothing is true with everyone full of lies
the only path out is commiting suicide
your body is abused and covered with scars
you stare into the mirror and cut open your arms
bitinn` awayy at 6:31 AM
It took me by surprise
When I saw you standing there
Close enough to touch
Breathing the same air
You asked me how I'd been
I guess that's when
I smiled and said just fine
Oh but baby I was lying
What I really meant to say
Is I'm dying here inside
I miss you more each day
There's not a night
I haven't cried
And baby here's the truth
I'm still in love with you
That's what I really meant to say
And as you walked away
The echo of my words
Cut just like a knife
Cut so deep it hurt
I held back the tears
Held on to my pride
And watched you go
I wonder if you'll ever know
What I really meant to say
Is I'm really not that strong
No matter how I try
I'm still holding on
And here's the honest truth
I'm still in love with you
That's what I really meant to say
bitinn` awayy at 3:46 AM
i'm sorry i gave you false hopes then shattered them
im sorry i made promises then broke them
im sorry.
but i never meant things this way.
i loved you.
i really did
with all my heart and soul
never meant to leave you in sorrow
but things jez arent the same
destiny chose who we're to meet
but our hearts decide who to be with
im just in a state of confusion now
yet instead if tomorrow never comes
kept playin on air today
and when i hear it
my heart just sinks
bitinn` awayy at 3:42 AM
Sunday, July 07, 2002
he casts the spells in my heart
he free the dreams in my mind
he wipes the tears in my eyes
he fills the emptiness in my soul
he takes me in total control
that's why i love him so
he makes me a better person just by loving me
and never proved his love untrue
bitinn` awayy at 9:15 AM
-sighs- don't hold on anymore please.
bitinn` awayy at 8:46 AM
nette thanks so much for last night!!! gees. when i came out of the restroom, the first thing i told huiling was... "praise God for lynette". hahas. luf ya gurl. you saved me.
bitinn` awayy at 12:18 AM
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