It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end
will miss the iloveyous
will miss the times we shared
will miss the hugs and kisses
will miss you
still, its now you and i
and never we
bitinn` awayy at 11:36 PM
Thursday, August 01, 2002
every loss in life
is a lesson leart
the mind purified
the heart mended
the soul strengthened
bitinn` awayy at 6:44 AM
our relationship might have been short
but it was one that was sweet
the sweetest part was
y o u
bitinn` awayy at 5:36 AM
Tuesday, July 30, 2002
allowing de waves of sadness n tears its natural x-pression.
hopin someone was der to smooth her hair
to tell her everithin was gonna turn out rite
when she cut herself
she wanted ta kill someone she hated
She din noe de other Veronicas
dat existed inside her
Veronicas dat she could luf
cowardice perhaps
or de eternal fear of bein wrong
of not doin wort others expect
A few moments ago she was hapi
she forgot she was all alone
then
when she remembered the situation she was in
she felt frightened
others dun realise
she's a purfectlie normal one
wif de same desires n fears
as everione else
She was intransigent bout de easy things
as if tryin ta prove ta herself
how strong n indifferent she was
when, in fact
she was jez a fragile girl
who had nv been an outstandin student
nv shined at her cca
and had nv succeeded in kipin peace at home
She had overcome her minor defects
onli to b defeated
by matters of fundamental importance
she had managed to appear utterlie independent
when she was, in fact
desperatelie in nid of companie
she had nv had enuf energie to b herself
a person who
like everione else in da world
nided other ppl in order ta b hapi
but other ppl were so difficult
dey reacted in unpredictable waes
dey surrounded demselves wif defensive walls
dey behaved jez as she did
pretendin dey din care bout anithin
when sumone more open to life appeared
dey either rejected dem outrite
or made dem suffer
considerin dem inferior, 'ingenious'
She mae haf impressed alota ppl
wif her strength and determination
wif her cheerfulness and smiles
but where had dat left her?
in de de void
utterlie lonelie
in isolation
in de anteroom of death
wif blood-stained knives
and tear soaked pillow cases
bitinn` awayy at 5:04 AM
if only you knew.
if only you did.
if only.
bitinn` awayy at 4:40 AM
Monday, July 29, 2002
-phew- finally. back. jez took a warm shower. after nine dirty days. hmns. i feel clean and fresh now. throughout the whole 9days camp I only showered twice. hahas. cuz the weather was freezin. so was the water. and so was i. after two long weeks... kinda climitized and am findin S'pore way too hot. grr... my skin is peelin from the dry climate in Denmark. anyways the whole camp was really enjoyable besides the 35m hike part and the ij(tp) and katong convent guides. really detestable. -pukes-
[[Janni]] hey girl! you made my camp fun and all. You've been a great host and I love you house! am missing you already. shall write to you soon. hope you like the card i made you. take care of trosen and all at home. oh and im sory i broke my promise. hees. im not gonna delete those photos i took of you anymore because the more i look at it the more amused i get. hahas. you look real funny yet sweet. and c'mon stop sayin im short. it's just that you are too tall. like 180? sheesh... and you tell me that's the normal height for girls... yea rite. over at denmark yea. hahas. i'll try to pick up Danish and i still can remember what you taught me! hees. jeg savner dig. =>
[[Anders]] hey man! thanks for the joy you gave me. you're really fun to play with. pity we only played for a day. it was nice knowing you. -smiles- take care of your injured toe yea? you make nice fragrant tea. hees.
[[Thomas]] hees. never seen a lil boy as cute as you. and you actually like henna. hahas. you stole my t-shirt! arhs... naughty boy... miss u mens.
[[Mia]] ooh power girl... you're so vibrant and chirpy. hees. simply Morgen's kind. that's why you're together anyways. hees. hope the weddin bells will ring soon! thanks for showing me around Lolland and helped me get some shoppin done. you've really good taste. my cuzin loves the shirt you chose. hees. thanks!
[[Morgen]] macho man pls take care of Mia well yea? Guess a nice guy like you wont break her heart AGAIN. hahas. She told me bout your past quarrels and stuff. youre real sweet and thoughtful. thanks for driving we three girls around town. hahas. guess you were really tortured with out gigglings and singin. hahas.
[[Christine]] yo babe. you really pick up Chinese fast compared to Janni and the rest. they really suck at it. hees. Fred is cute kies! sheesh. youve bad bad taste. Peter? like erm... eeks! hahas. he's super rude too... "just take the goddamn picture." right. that night at the beach he was super irritating alrites? kept splashin water at me knowing i was freezin enough. and you didnt bother to help me. just stood there and watched drama yea. smart. anyways i miss your lameness... sighs.
[[Jeep]] yoohoos. I still think you have a funny name.hahas. but anyhows it was fun slping over in the toilet yea? hahas. crazee us. but it was really warm in there with the six of us all snuggled together. you make me laugh all the time. -smiles-
[[Magta]] hey harry potter look-alike. hees. you can never get the gako song right huh. hahas. you're the biggest joker in our Maribo district mens! i miss ur jokes lots....lots...
[[Frederik]] -smiles- thanks for piggybackin me 3km for the bloody 35km hike. it was all your fault for the extra 10km anyways. you just cannot make it for topo alrites. you deserve the ache since you made me walk so much. Anyways I really had fun with you guys... thanks for accompanyin me to the toilet always. the night spent in there was really funny and all. the most enjoyable night throughout the whole camp. Thanks for making it happen. and also for helping me get back at Peter! yea. hahas. you're the sweetest... and the cutest. -grins-
[[Peter]] you're irritating! hahas. you really are. without you I'd be cleaner without all the mud and dirt you always throw on me. but it was fun arguin with you anyways. hahas.
[[Anna]] sweetie... was fun having your patrol as our friendship patrol. just take your peter in hand. hahas. Love your nice eyes. Must remember to write to me okay? -smiles-
[[Linda]] yos loud girl... keep my red hairband in proper shape alrites. -smiles- youre thirteen yet taller than me... Im just gonna make sure I grow and grow faster than you do! hees...
[[Charis]] you're the only nice girl from KC besides bihan... and im not a feminist. wonder how i looked like one to you... sheesh.
[[Lu-anne]] oei. oei. oei. hahas. thank God you're in my patrol. if not i dont know how i'll hafta last through the camp with those two... eeks! you gotta return me my extra bag yea... hmns. wonder how you bought so much stuff. remember the 17th arhs... -grins-
[[Vanessa.Qianjun.Adora.Farah.Grace.Fiona.Bihan]] luf you guys mens! you all make the Spore contingent the best for the International night program. am so proud of you all! and I din trip on stage! hahas.
[[Sam]] time to attack Cartel yea? -grins-
[[nette]] got lotsa things to catch up with you on...
bitinn` awayy at 4:24 AM
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