it's late in the middle of the night. everyone's away. either sleeping or mugging. i read through dairies from the start to the end. read from archive to archive. in this world where time doesnt stop, would anyone just sit back and read through their past? how life changes. the names mentioned in entries have differed. new layouts surface. some stopped writing. some wrote a few entries per day. i questioned what i wrote in my previous entries. some, i remembered who they were meant for. others, i forgot the reason for it being there. i sneered at my own foolish thoughts in the past. i cried a tear or two at the bittersweet memories. ive lost many people. ive met many people. that familiarity has turned animosity. -breathes-

bitinn` awayy at 8:46 AM

On the horizon of the new life
Lies the love of the father
Watchfully loving the son
Riding on the words of the people
Singing the words of the moon
Embracing the life of the new born world

Bleeding the ink of the fallen writers
Crying the tears of the fallen voices
Feeling the pain of the wounded mothers
Missing the pride of the long gone fathers
Dancing away the pain...
Dance away the pain with me...

Spin away the unintended cuts
Rebuild your confidence in a sway
Dip into the past and repair the dents
Left by the ones of your
Nearly faded past
Dance away the pain...

On the horizon of one new life
Lies a peacefully resting being
Sleeping away the lies
Into the eternal utopia of the heavens
Riding on the words of the people
Singing the words of the moon
Embracing the life of the old and worn world

bitinn` awayy at 7:46 AM

promise! gonna study. really. mugging. mugging. mugging. will study. sheesh. (>_<)

bitinn` awayy at 2:25 AM

the fifth.
my favourite date.
my happiest moment.
three months ago.

the fifth.
i dislike this date.
it brings back memories
of three months ago.

bitinn` awayy at 7:51 AM

the police post is not a nice place to be in.
strange insects they have there.
sitting there for hours suck too.
sheesh. jew, promise me to be wiser in future?

bitinn` awayy at 7:51 AM

Monday, November 04, 2002

[jew] it really gets me wondering each time i think about what you just did today. silly girl! i mean you dont have to be such a kind hearted girl yea? but this is not gonna be another scolding or what ever crap. guess xh did the scolding part. but oh wells, -huggies- everything will be fine. its just one of those silly things humans do. but then again, i pray that God will see that you did it plainly out of kindness and that guy will repent if his intentions werent pure. (>_<) take heart dear.

bitinn` awayy at 7:29 AM

Sunday, November 03, 2002

the waves had crashed furiously upon the rigid rocks, eroding little pieces of its existence.
what used to be firm, beautiful, and indestructible was now marred and destroyed.
God's creations lie corroded in the hands of the angry waves;
yet they still corrupted what was most precious.

standing against time in an unending battle proved difficult;
the struggle for everday victory was harder to achieve than it seemed.
these waves were proud, dominating, and vicious.
Little hope had the rocks, for everyday they lost a little bit of faith,
a little bit of hope, a little bit of what they were.

but one day, by some miracle, the great winds ceased, and all was calm.
the sea stood still, tranquil in its paified state.
no waves crashed against the shores;
the rocks sat firmly upon the land, unharmed at the present time.

waves are life's enemies.
we are faced daily with the treacherous obstacles down the paths.
we may allow these adverities to condemn us, to tear us, to devour us.
they may rip us limb from limb if we allow such corruption in our own souls and hearts.

but we may diverge from these things.
strength embeds itself within each of;
yet, it is up to us to dig down deep in the crevices of ourselves.
and capture that courage which so easily is forgotten.
hope holds steadfast to our souls, but we must use it if we are to thrive.

waves are life's enemies.
obstacles may get in our paths of life.
but do not let them errode your being.
youre stronger than any striking wave.

the fight which we possess inside ourselves is enduring.
unleash the hidden tenacity within yourself.
believe what you believe.
fight for what you know.
and be just who you are.

waves are life's enemies.
but enemies are not so easily shielded,
for enduring faith always wins.

bitinn` awayy at 4:33 AM

all the wonders in the world, wrapped in a tiny little box. Hold your hand out just to see, all that can be seen. in it's hope, faith, and love, elements one needs to survive. The hope of all good or bad. The faith to believe when one seem they can no longer believe. And the love of another just for yourself. Always everlasting love. Close your eyes, and imagine you life. see it as you would write it. For you are the author or your life. Pick up your pen and write. Watch the letters intensely, walk your words off life. So much to learn, as we live. So much to do, so much to give. whether one day, weeks or years. Your write your life. You make it true. You make it right, real, and through. Close your eyes. keep the thoughts. Write them down. follow them on. Put them in a box. remember them well. For all the wonders in your world, are surely in that tiny little box. :)

bitinn` awayy at 4:05 AM